To blog, or not to blog? (Is that even a question) #ALWAYSBLOG lol!!! This week’s dilemma was whether or not to write what’s on my heart? I wrestled with the whole putting myself out there and the possible repercussions of random people knowing stuff about me, then judging me without really ever knowing me, but then then I decided ‘blog that’ and I remembered that the whole point was for me to offload some of the baggage that has weighed me down over the years in the hopes of gaining a ‘moment of clarity’
I don’t know if it’s just me but considering it’s been said that
women love to talk and are constantly engaging in conversations about how they
feel, how come men think that women
generally speak in code?? Newsflash ‘MOST’ of us are like open books and quite clear about what we want, think and
feel from my experience it’s you guys
who speak in ‘SUBTEXT’ and would rather skip to the next chapter or better yet
close the book instead of just turning the page.
(My EX) “I love you BUT……..” translation = “I don’t love you
enough”
(ME) “I love you…” translation = I love you
(MY EX) “Yeah I know BUT what do you expect me to do?”
translation = “I know what I should do BUT I’m not going to”
(ME) “What can I do to make it better?” translation = “what
can I do to make it better?”
(MY EX) “I will give you what you want BUT u need to give me
time” translation = “I have no intention of changing but if you love me enough
you will’’
Well that my friends is why he is an Ex friend of mine lol…...I’m
sure you get the point though right? It’s frustrating for me to talk to or even
be around people that are just not straightforward. I don’t understand it and I
don’t think I ever want to. I guess I am just a little fed up of late, with so
many people never really saying what they actually mean. Surely it takes more
effort and energy to lie and fabricate or manipulate situations than to just be
honest? And let’s be real if you have
time for that then I clearly I don’t have time for you.
As for the ex in question (who’s behaviour was more than questionable
to be fair) the congruency between his actions and his words left a lot to be
desired. I mean he paid lip service so much that I’m pretty sure the lines between
what he said and what he meant to say were actually blurred even in his own
mind :-/ (And that’s saying something). You guys must know what I’m talking
about and that’s just the tip of the Iceberg. Worse than that are those loose
lipped, economising with the truth, gift of the gab men and women who not only
lie to themselves which is madness in itself but then expect you to believe
their lies to, because they do? (really though) Then they turn around and have
the audacity to get angry with you when you don’t. Like how dare you not
believe them? (oh I don’t know maybe perhaps because you seem to be incapable
of being in the same vicinity as the truth much less in close proximity?.....jheeze)
I’m sorry if that came across a little irate but GOOD!!! It was
meant to. Even thinking about the few times that my love for someone has made
me question MY perception of the situation, (even though my instincts were screaming
don’t listen) gets me mad….correction used to get me mad!! (Because obviously I’m
so over that now and eh hemm spiritually enlightened and all that hahaha…)
I don’t know what it is but why is that when a conversation
suddenly involves more than a yes no response, they shut down or switch into ‘Subtext
Mode’ utilising the art of avoidance, misdirection, non-comprehension,
basically using a whole lot of words whilst saying a whole lot of nothing? Confusing
themselves (whilst in the process of) trying to confuse you. Me personally I’m
on my catch phrase tip I just say what I see and call it how I see it. Don’t get
me wrong ‘subtext’ in context i.e. stimulating conversations during courtship
can be ‘interesting’ shall we say but once you hit ‘relationship’ status that
ish is so NOT cute anymore. “Say what you mean and mean what you say” #Simplez Playing games will only ever have one outcome
because someone always has to lose, that said of course honesty is the best
policy regardless of whether or not it’s what one wanted to hear. One thing I have found to be the case though, is
that usually when you hear the word ‘BUT’
in a sentence whatever follows is likely to be a lie, an excuse or an attempt
to completely misdirect you…It is rarely ever the TRUTH……BUT….. then again what
do I know lol!!!
So the moral of the
story just “say what you mean and mean what you say…” it really is NOT that
hard???? Speaking the truth always yields better results than trying to lie
your way out of situations. One lie will always ultimately lead to another
until you are eventually trapped by the tangled web of deceit that you weave. I have always tried to tell the truth and be
real about how I do or don’t feel only now I do it from a place of love. Granted
in the past I may have been a little too frank In my opinions and forthright in
my beliefs but I never freely offered
them up unless they were asked for… so in my defence if you don’t want to know
what I TRULY think you really shouldn’t ask
me the question!!! Should you Lol (just sayin J )
Till Next Wednesday try
and tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing BUT the truth!!!!
(I did say try, I never
said you’d be successful lol one step at a time hey!!)
#ALWAYSLOVE <3
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